I’m starting something today that I’ve known I should do for a while. But have been unable to force myself to do.
Last month my oncologist and I talked about depression. I wanted to see a psychologist who had experience with PTSD and EMDR because I’ve been down this road before.
She put in an expedited request.
Today I saw a psychiatrist (!) because the (only SCCA) psychologist is retiring. (That was a surprise.)
And I start my antidepressant with tonight’s meal.
It’s ‘cleaner’ than Prozac, according to Dr. Howe, which I have used at two very different points in recovery (first attempt to recover from childhood trauma and then after my first knee surgery).
‘Cleaner’ is important because of the anti-cancer drug (my AI).
She’s also prescribed “fun” and outings with friends. She wanted me to create a “for fun” calendar. We already have one! It just needs to have stuff added.
Because breast cancer, especially stage 3C breast cancer, hovers in the background … (a) anti-depressants are a fairly standard treatment and (b) it is unlikely that I will graduate from them.